Monday, October 25, 2010

Baby Update

Our ultrasounds appointment arrived and we couldn't have asked for a better time for a happy moment.  

Mi esposo and I have been waiting for this since we found out we were going to be blessed with a baby.  Finally, I'll be able to use the proper pronoun when talking about the baby.  I think I've entered the disgruntled phase because whenever I hear a doctor, nurse or anyone in the medical field use the term "fetus" it irritates me.  Fetus just sounds so removed from the miracle we've been given that I just want to shout and say "it’s a baby people!"

I've been so consumed with discovering the gender of the baby that it wasn't until mi esposo pointed out that this appointment will give us our first peak at our little miracle.  In my mind I had already created a little squiggly baby, with pale skin, dark eyes and dark hair so I never really thought about what the baby would actually look like and never thought I would be able to see a 3D picture.  I also didn't realize I would be able to see the baby move and see all ten fingers and toes.  In my mind, I had though the appointment would have been full of me crying buckets of tears, but with everything that has happened I think I been just about cried out and instead I stared at wonder at the little life inside of me.  I couldn't imagine that this baby was real and that it was a HE!  Yes, it’s a boy! By the way I think he may have his daddy's lips, I just wonder if he'll have his freckles too.

My sweet, adorable esposo beat me to the punch ladies and gentlemen by buying his son his first gift from us, Mom & Dad. 

Philadelphia Phillies Bib

Its very fitting that our little boy will receives such a gift from his Daddy, a die hard Phillies fan.   

It’s been said, as per pregnancy books and websites, that fathers often feel removed from the pregnancy until they feel movement from the baby or a father may not be involved until birth but I think mi esposo is already bonding with the baby and is very much involved in the pregnancy.  He was the one who bought me the “What to Expect When Your Expecting” book and has been consistently reading ahead to be prepared for the next stage and he's been the one to lay his hand on my belly to feel the slightest ripple from his son.

I can't wait for the day that we, Daddy, his little boy and me, Mommy (wow, I'm going to be Mommy) get to take our first family photo.  

Monday, October 4, 2010


This was a tough weekend for mi espos and I.

We brought our beloved kittens, Ronald and Luna, into the vet on Friday to have them both fixed; as we all know having your pets fixed has been purported by vets to extend the life of your pet.

Unfortunately something went very wrong and our darling Ronald did not recover from his surgery. The vet said his heart stopped beating. How is that possible? He was only six months old!!!! He was fine but the vet said he must have had a heart condition that no one knew about. I can’t believe I am not going to see that little orange face in the morning or on my pillow at night.

I know God has a plan for us all and I am definitely not mad at God for taking him home, I’m just heartbroken. I can’t bear the thought of my poor Luna being alone all day while mi esposo and I are at work. I miss my Ronald Weasley so much, and I have to think about all the wonderful times I spent with him.

I went online searching for answers and found this and I firmly believe God led me here…

I will lend to you for awhile a kitten, God said.
For you to love while he lives, and mourn when he's dead.
Maybe for twelve or fourteen years, or maybe two or three.
But will you, 'till I call him back, take care of him for me?

He'll bring his charms to gladden you and, should his stay be brief
You'll always have his memories as solace for your grief.
I cannot promise he will stay, since all from earth return.
But there are lessons taught below I want this kitten to learn.
I've looked the whole world over in search of teachers true.
And from the folk that crowds life's land I have chosen you.
Now will you give him all your love, nor think the labor vain?
Nor hate me when I come to take my kitten home again?

I fancied that I heard them say 'Dear Lord Thy Will Be Done'
For all the joys this kitten brings the risk of grief we'll run.
We'll shelter him with tenderness, we'll love him while we may.
And for the happiness we've known, forever grateful stay.
But should you call him back much sooner than we planned,
We'll brave the bitter grief that comes, and try to understand.

If, by our love we've managed your wishes to achieve,
Then in memory of him whom we loved, please help us while we grieve.
When our cherished kitten departs this world of strife,
Please send yet another needing soul for us to love all his life.

We love you Ronald.